ally

I look for you in everyone I meet
and when I don't find you, I feel
an aura of grief.
There isn't a single sense
I can make of my emotions.
They go on mingling,
and I anticipate a protest.
It's discomforting —
I don't know what they are advocating for!
Surely they have rights
that I haven't been fulfilling
so they fight me,
and I'm powerless to begin with.
Now where do I go?
Who will be my ally
when my own heart is revolting against me?
What casualties will result
from this war?
I carry great sacrifices,
sadly realizing the punishment for my offenses
was when I lost you.